Martyrs

The meeting today in sunny Sutton was about acts 6 & 7 about a guy called Simon (know who i mean?) well he was stoned to death coz he told everyone they were stiff necked idiots in so many words....
anyway in the message we were being told that if you put yourself out for someone else & dont worry about how you'll be viewed or treated then you're a martyr. It got me thinkin about all those 'religious' forwarded emails that fly into our inboxes all the time. How many of us only send them onto other Christians because we dont want to offend our friends. I do it 2 which is silly really coz my friends all know I'm a Christian and yet we have these amazing miracle stories which surely we should share with ppl to prove we're not worshipping "sum dead guy that wrote a book" - as my friends though Jesus was....!

Just a thought.....

Back at uni but not feeling like a student! :(

I know I want to be a primary school teacher but I wish I could do that without being at uni sometimes! I've been living bk in my uni house for 3 days now but coz my lectures have finished I'm just at school for four weeks. I feel like im at work and should be all grown up but then I come back here & my housemates have done nothing all day! (dont ask me what I've done today I'll give u a hint - we have one child who's being potty trained..... and another one who has a hate for any 'mess' on his pants...... yes rubber gloves were involved throughout the whole day.....!)
anyone wondering why I don't want to work in a nursery.....!
Anyway! Can't remember what I was gonna say now but there we go it comes to you after 2 days of playing with children my mind has gone to mush but my teacher aint in tomorrow so I've got to be on the ball (gotta cook animal biccies with 4 children as well....!)

What's with all the ....!'s on this blog?! I don't even know what I'm doing so I'll shush!
Hope u'll all ok I'll be back in romford town soon & not have to think about nursery anymore.

(I'll just mention i'm not hating my placement it's just very different to what I'm use to so I'm just a bit out of my depth but it's a lovely nursery with very lovely people!)

miss you all!

Fear/ Worry stone

The illustration of rolling away our own stone was like a slap in the face this morning!
I know I'm now 20 and supposed to be mature and grown up but that still doesn't stop my fears. A lot of you prob know I'm arachnophobic but since starting my second year I've found a new bigger fear. - being alone in my house surronded by silence. Granted I don't live in a very nice area (although only 1 stabbing to my knowledge since Christmas) so a little bit of scaredness is allowed to keep me in check with reality but still I need to grow up.
I need to roll away te stone of worry and fear of my ickle house being broken into whilst im there on my own. but how?
it's all well & good saying yea I trust God to keep me safe but I'm only human and when there's a noise outside the house my mind always thinks the worst why can't God stop my thoughts? did Jesus feel dread? did his mind play tricks on him to scare him? or is that a human trait he never got the pleasure to experience?? hummmm....
don't know why im waffling about this really guess it's coz im going back to uni 2moz & Paul has had to give up his holiday to spend in my house whilst im at work just so I'm not home alone grrrr I need to be as strong & brave as an ox!
Here's to a new week...

Uni students have the ideal life???! let's see.....

Another boring day in the world of student on easter break today!
You know when your little and you really look forward to the holidays particularly the summer one? well i now know why we enjoyed it coz it was long enough to enjoy time away from school but not too long to make you forget how to learn. I've got loads of work to keep me occupied for these three weeks, how much have i done? 1 piece which was two weeks over due anyway. If I was at uni I'd be so bored I'd get on with it but here with the distraction of free food, TV and other electric drinking stuff I just dont do the work I need to do! I asked Dave for a lava lamp for my bday but I've spent 3 hrs yesterday watching it look pretty whilst reading Harry Potter. It's really not necessary or appropriate. I need someone to tie me down with a computer, my books and cool post-it-notes with a heavy threat of 'if you dont do your work I'm going to cause you great pain' (and not be scared to carry it through!) Any takers?!
Oh and of course thanks to little Miss Sarah I now can waste equal time on here & on Facebook woohoo ta lol!
Help me!! I need to stop being so easily distracted (or as you said Sarah maybe Im just too easily influenced too...!)

Hello everybody!
This is my first proper blog and I only came here to bore you with my waffle because Sarah keeps telling me off for not reading and commenting on her blog so I've had to start blogging myhself to remind me to read her's & write waffle long comments on her thoughts! (make sense?? yes of course it does!)
Well it's Good Friday today so 'no messing about and no smiling but do enjoy your solemn walk around Romford!'
nah was an interesting day particularly when we were all told off for standing up to sing etc.,! on a serious not it was a interesting day & a good chance for all the different churches to show a bit of unity (& highlight our differences to each other...!) but at least we know it's possible to work together we should do more fellowship type stuff to get to know each other it's like being at school and kjnowing you can't possibly be the only Christian in the school of 500 + and yet you dont know unless you see someone at easter time or if they were a WWJD braclet etc! strange world we live in. God didn't want us to spread the Word to make the Salvation Army bigger He wants us to spread the Word to get more people saved surely working together we can us each others skills & stuff not just rely on 'what the army does does for it's own ppl' type thinking!
sorry i'll stop waffling I didnt mean to go onto that thought at all oh well!!!