I'm a "My mask is off blogger"

I was thinking about this issue of audience that Liz bought up from my last blog & I've realised that I blog thinking about who's reading this because if I didn't want people to read it I'd write my thoughts in a diary.... I was talking to a very good friend yesterday at church about how we wear masks at church - you know what I mean it's the "everything's fine and dandy with me & my family thanks" when two seconds earlier u've just been grounded for a month for fighting & breaking your little sister's favourite toy.... or the "yes life's great thanks really getting somewhere" which translates at: my life is on the rocks & I'm praying God will get me out and somewhere better
I blog to tell people how I really feel, you ask me my opinion on something I'm likely to give you a politically correct answer.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MrIKFLJP8Jc
watch this. As I left church yesterday my mate told me how she feels & I was sooooo excited to know she was feeling exactly the same as me yet we had both just sat in church & chatted afterwards wearing our masks of "yep I'm totally ok with God & everything". How sad if we can't show our true feelings and emotions to our friends at church, who can we tell? we've got a friend suffering terribly with depression & in our group of three we coulod all list 2 or 3 other people we knew who had spent times in darkness yet we only knew after they'd got through it our we too proud as Christians to accept we need help or is it a human fault?? I dunno but I hope one day I can turn up to church leaving my mask at home maybe we all will....

At the moment I can't be unmasked at church but I can sit 2hrs away from home & be my true self so here I am the unmasked blogger