How do people do this???

I'm sitting in my room in an empty house & can't stop playing this song by Tim Hughes. I just can't work out how people can write these words and believe it totally and all the time and do they think this all the time?? "When the tears fall, I will praise you. Through the suffering still I will sing" It's like Blessed be Your Name how did Matt Redman write that song when he was going through so much rubbish?? Am I the only person that gets mad at God when things go wrong or is it just people that know how to write songs who are always happy and praising??? Maybe if I could write songs I'd never feel angry or sad.....


When the Tears Fall

I've had questions, without answers
I've known sorrow, i have known pain
but theres one thing, that i'll cling to
you are faithful, Jesus your true

when hope is lost, i'll call you saviour
when pain surrounds, i'll call you healer
when silence falls, you'll be the song within my heart

in the lone hour, of my sorrow
through the darkest night of my soul
you surround me, and sustain me
my defender, forever more

when hope is lost, i'll call you saviour
when pain surrounds, i'll call you healer
when silence falls, you'll be the song within my heart

I will praise you, i will praise you
when the tears fall, still i will sing to you
i will praise you, Jesus praise you
Through the suffereing still i will sing

when hope is lost, i'll call you saviour
when pain surrounds, i'll call you healer
when silence falls, you'll be the song within my heart

I've had questions, without answers
I've known sorrow, i have known pain
but theres one thing, that i'll cling to
you are faithful, Jesus your true

when hope is lost, i'll call you saviour
when pain surrounds, i'll call you healer
when silence falls, you'll be the song within my heart

I will praise you, i will praise you
when the tears fall, still i will sing to you
i will praise you, Jesus praise you
Through the suffereing still i will sing X2

when hope is lost, i'll call you saviour
when pain surrounds, i'll call you healer
when silence falls, you'll be the song within my heart


Sorry to make no sense to those of you that don't feel the same way but I just don't get it!

She survives a 2wentys holiday!

Hiya everbody!

Well I survived my week in Greece with mad drivers, new toilet rules, lack of water, free alcohol flowing and a mini earthquake!
Big woop-woop 2 my sarah coz my mates loved playing 5's and "what a clap" (!)

Anyway I've learnt a few things this last week about the way countries work which are dependent on tourism to put food on their tables...
as we were a large group we were hard to miss and all the restaurants and clubs wanted us to spend our euros with them. Here's one conversation word for word:


Owner of restaurant: You come for breakfast, lunch?
Moi: no they want pancakes
Owner: We don't do pancakes
Moi: no they really want pancakes
Owner: we do other treats for you
Moi: no they only want pancakes
Owner: oh I forgot we do do pancakes
25mis later we were given 'pancakes'

we weren't too impressed and went back 3days later to give the chef a cooking lesson.
Funny what people do to get our money...!

I'm sowiee

Hello blogging world I do apologise for my absence over the last ...... however long!

I don't really have any deep thought but just thought I'd say hi & that give me a week in the sun and I'll be back to the student world of 'work-avoidance' and my blog will be more interesting!

Anyway, have a good week I'll fill you in on the world of 2wenty's holiday-ing when I get back.... slightly scary but oh well....!

See you all soon (yes Kirsty and Sarah I have just written this random note so that I can hault your distress of seeing the same title when you click on me....!)

xxx

you can't swim with your feet on the bottom...

"When I was learning to swim, the swimming instructor

used to shout, "For goodness' sake take your feet off

the bottom!' Sometimes it's like that in our Christian life...

we're scared of getting out of our depth, but it's impossible

to learn to swim that way. Our feelings let us down, telling

us that this is not us - we're never going to be good swimmers,

never going to do much for God. but God... takes the ordinary and

makes it extrodinary, and that is exactly what happens to us when we

give our lives into his hands..."

(Clare Blake: Diary of an [extra] ordinary woman)

I'm sure you all know where I'm headed with this I'm rather obvious really! I went into Upminster Christian bookshop on Wednesday not because I wanted anything but coz I was walking past and decided to stop (or God nudged me.....) this book caught my eye just from the quote above I love that anaolgy. We can't learn to swim with our feet walking along the bottom of the pool. We can't learn to drive without lessons and reading books to help us we can't pass our test without practice. We're humans we're not perfect we can try and fail, try again then fail as long as we keep trying and don't give up we will learn to be what God wants us to be. Funnily enough God knows what He's doing... He created us... He can see more than we can... we just need to get on with trusting His plans and yes tht means lifting up your feet even if it means you feel like your drowning for a bit. If we're doing what He wants we wont fail....

A quick note!

"If you wanna be somebody, if you wanna go somewhere, you better wake up & pay attention"


I is sitting watching Sister Act 2 & just wanted to write the above. Isn't it true that we can do whatever we want as long as we have the effort to get up and get on with it...

YAY

YAY! I had to blog just to say YAY!
My housemate txt me on Friday night when I was coming home to say she couldn't afford to live in our house next yr (bear in mind that uni has finished everyone has moved out of halls & there's no one around to ask 'would you like to live in our house next yr?!) Anyway, a while ago when we were advertising our free rooms for next yr my mate Piglet said she had a mate who needed somewhere but unfortunatly by then the rooms had bin taken. Sooooo I txt Piglet (should point out now that's not her real name!) and ask if her mate stills needs a room, she said she'll pass my name onto Liz & gave me her email address. Sooooo I get home run up a quick email asking if she still needs a roof over her head, no reply, Saturday - no reply, Sunday - no reply meanwhile Rena is getting stressed about having no money & needing someone to move in. Sooooo on Monday I sent another email (u know how all emails go into your junk mail if u dont have the persons contact details) incase she hadn't got the first one.
Sooooo Monday afternoon I get two emails about half an hr apart.
1st one: no I've got a house sorted with the postgrad's hope you find someone though
2nd one: our house isn't set in stone can I have more details please????

Sooooo I send back details about the house, where we are & rent stuff

Email reply: can I live in ur house please?!

So in less than a week we've got a 4th hosemate all sorted & she's a Christian so I don't even have to explain to the newbie my random music etc!
Isn't God great always sorts everything out even when it starts off being a big mess Amazing!

I'll take a break! or will I??!

phreewww I've finished my 2nd yr for the time being. I'll just have to wait for my results to do the dreaded resubmissions but there we go I always do better the 2nd time round so it's a good job I can resubmit lol!
Anyway that's not really why I started this new post.

You may or may not recall a while ago I wrote a post about wanting a pause button on my remote control of life. well over the coming week I'm going to be looking for times to just pause & be free to sit and be still. (I know that may seem like a chance to be lazy but honestly that's not my plan!)

Just incase some of you don't know fun camp (aka Kids Alive Outside) will be in full flow by this time next week. Please be thinking of Liz and all the other 'staff' like people but above all remember all the fantasitastic kids that are gonna be coming along!

Watch this space we'll see if I've managed to pause in my busy life!

(hello Rebecca I hope u've moved in the last couple of hrs....?!)